Words and I

I’m not sure if many people notice, but today is the 29th of February! Yay! Yes, we won’t run across this date again until 4 years later. So today must be so special, is it not?

Everyday should be special, but since life is like a wheel, sometimes you’re up, sometimes you’re down, it’s only fair to say that everyday is special but not for everybody. Do you think not? But then we have to be positive and live a fulfilling life, so I’d say that everyday is special, but today is more special than yesterday, and hope that tomorrow will be more special than today, no matter what!

Yes, no matter what.  

…so that you can see a rainbow.

I hope I can always remember this.

:)

I went trekking to an ancient temple site with a friend and a guide. We started at 3 in the morning so that we could see sunrise at the top of a mountain in time.

The Earth was so dark and quiet when we started. It rained the previous night and the ground was still wet. Quietly we walked along the sleepy villages, silent forest, and serene hills. Soon our eyes were used to the darkness. We used flashlight to see the path, but even in the darkness I could see beauty around.

The sun was hiding from us at the mountain top. Instead, we were greeted by thick fog. Still, it was so lovely. I still could see flickers of lights in a village down there before it all swept by the fog, all was so white suddenly. It’so serene you could even hear the wind blew.

Then we walked again along the unbeaten track. I could see beauty everywhere. The simple village people, their simple houses, the river, the paddy field, the trees, the sky… until we reached the temple.

I’m so glad I made that journey.

The art of letting go. I’ve been learning to master it. I think nobody can really really be good at it. Everyone seems too attached to people, things, or career in their life that it’s so difficult to let them go.

When we die (we can’t even seem to accept that we are going to die someday), what we bring to another life is just only our soul. Of course I understand it, and so does everyone, but still there are times I still need time to digest it…

…and so I’m trying to let go of people and things I’ve cared in my life. I’ve tried to be able to point out at things (or maybe people?), and say, "This too shall pass…."

I don’t really give a damn about career, lol. I have tried not to need too much of things. I am a simple life supporter, hahaha. I think I am making progress. Letting go of people? It’s so difficult. Can we just love them and let them go and that’s all? Mmm….

I feel like writing today (I think I feel like writing everyday), and I often end up writing nothing. Ideas are created, collected, and kept, and when I need them, they are flying everywhere, lol, and I wonder why.

I think I need a target, and somehow I must dedicate some hours or minutes of my life a day to just write, and think of nothing else. One article a week, perhaps? I know, it’s easy to say. One needs motivation.

Each action is triggered by a motivation. They say a strong motivation can move mountains. Wow! I’m yet to find a strong one.

Back in the old days when I was a kid in the late 70-es, I remember that we did not have various packaged snacks like we do now. Most of our snacks were fresh from the oven, except perhaps candies and chocolate bar. My Mom used to make us homemade snacks and cookies, some were wrapped in banana leaves, and they were made mostly from fresh cassavas, potatoes, sweet potatoes, bananas, coconut, corn, and other crops you found in a traditional market, sold directly by the very farmer. How fresh could that be? Thus I grow up enjoying freshly made snacks, with less or even no added chemical flavors or preservatives.  

I miss those traditional snacks. Slowly but surely, they are being replaced by modern snacks with various colors, forms, and ingredients in beautiful modern wrappings. Kids nowadays are attracted to these ones more than the traditional ones.

I’m just worried about the ingredients. The modern snacks expire much much longer, and parents and adults should have been more aware of what that means. But, hey, who doesn’t want to be modern? Food has to be efficient, easy, fast, and… er… modern.

I went to the office canteen this morning, and found my delicious-hard-to-find-steamed-cassavas-mixed-with-scraped-coconut-with-corn! Yummy!

I received sad news from my friends, and I know somehow what has happened to them change their life. Well, life is always changing, but I think I’m the type of person who takes life like a river, let it run and I’ll go with the flow. But that news somehow made me think more.

What is my priority in life?

I’ve always thought that all that I care about are important. Now I am beginning to think, are they? Which one is more important than the others, and which one is less important? I wish I had a magic computer which can sort out my priorities and tell me what is really important.

I think being a good person is the number one priority… I wish life were simpler.