Words and I

Life is full of choices, that’s what I’ve learned so far. But when it comes into winning a lottery, that’s a fate…haha! It’s a choice, too, believe me. To buy or not to buy, that is the question. Isn’t it?

Anyway… 

The first time I ever really pondered over each word in Robert Frost’s poem, The Road Less Traveled, I shed a tear.

It was one of the most crucial time in my life. I decided to change my study in the university and almost everyone were against my decision… because I took the road less traveled by. I didn’t know if that was my right choice but I knew it was what I really wanted my whole life.

Then I read the poem.  

This is its last verses that brought down my tears:

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I–
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference

But I know now that I wont be telling this with a sigh because I took the one less traveled by and that really has made all the difference. I hope I wont be telling people years years later things like, "I could have….", "I should have been a….", "If only things were different, I’d….", and many more excuses.

Life is full of choices, my friend… along with its risk.

I first heard the word ‘favor bank’ from a novel I read, The Zahir by Paulo Coelho a few months ago.  I think the idea of it has been known for a long time if not forever. Give someone a favor and oneday when you need one, you’ll likely get it from an unexpected source. Sound like a karma, eh? Maybe it has similar idea but why do I always think of negative thoughts with the word ‘karma’?

Anyway, this favor bank idea turns to disturb me the way karma does. Not always but sometimes I just can’t hide this ‘what will I get in return if I do this?’ thought when I want to do things which involve helping others. But of course sometimes I just help without even having time to think about the reward or even knowing there is even such a reward!

I think it’s like having a bargain with God. "God, if I do this, would You give me that?" Or, "Dearest God, I don’t want to do this unless You present me that!" Sounds so… childish? Well, I think we all have done this at least once in our life?

In my opinion, the favor bank we have all through our life is supposed to be for Him.